Friday, October 31, 2008
uuhhh empty words.
And i waited so foolishly...
nvm..im used to it anyway.
我并没感到生气,只是一种失望。
我并没发威,只是免得被认为是小气。。。
signing off now,
1.12.08
12:07am
HAPPY B'DAY MOM!
posted at 9:03 AM
I haven't been happier than today :]
And its been so long.
Though past are as it is now
But i learnt that there are things that will never be the same again.
Anyway, i will be trying keep it worthwhile.
Neway, CY,should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the people who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.
That's us. Cheer up man! You still have us on your side, lovesick damsel :).
OH btw,
i might be removing me tagboard and so ima be leaving my MSN contact instead.
I will be making it a music corner for me or sth lol.. O.o
posted at 3:23 AM
Thursday, October 30, 2008
You know, this blog is locked.
Meanwhile i will make of this little time to get reflect.
I was surfing the net and i came these lines
You're...
My Friend,
my companion,
through good times and bad
my friend, my buddy,
through happy and sad,
beside me you stand,
beside me you walk,
you're there to listen,
you're there to talk,
with happiness, with smiles,
with pain and tears,
I know you'll be there,
throughout the years!
I know you will.
But i know i have failed as a friend
I'm sorry
But i realised that it takes more than courage to face you again.
And u walked out on me like that today.
I always thought im someone really strong.
Always thought I could do solo
But I guess I was wrong.
It been years since something really wetted my eyes.
It has been so long..
Don't pretend u don't care.
I know you do.
I haven't not know nothing in these 3 years you know.
I'm just hoping that things wouldn't end this way..I really don't..
Fragile things.
I have been reading.
And i have learnt that:
it takes years to build up trust,
but just seconds to destroy it.
But have you forgotten?:
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From: deanhuntweicheung@hotmail.com
To: harrychiang_@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Date: Fri, 20 Jun 2008 18:58:31 +0800
yoyoyo i am bored
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From: harrychiang_@hotmail.com
To: deanhuntweicheung@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Date: Sun, 25 May 2008 17:30:05 +0800
Adrian wont make it. Im afriad we have to leave him behind. He will be remembered.
Sincerely, Junyong.
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From: deanhuntweicheung@hotmail.com
To: harrychiang_@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Date: Sun, 25 May 2008 13:03:25 +0800
Does everyone agree to my date and time on monday??????
U,keller,me agrees
wad about otherrs?
Love, dean
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From: harrychiang_@hotmail.com
To: deanhuntweicheung@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Date: Sun, 25 May 2008 10:41:54 +0800
X333 loves you too.
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From: deanhuntweicheung@hotmail.com
To: harrychiang_@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Date: Wed, 21 May 2008 09:57:25 +0800
I love u 2222222 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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From: harrychiang_@hotmail.com
To: deanhuntweicheung@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Date: Wed, 21 May 2008 09:54:51 +0800
I love u too. <333
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From: deanhuntweicheung@hotmail.com
To: harrychiang_@hotmail.com
Subject:
Date: Tue, 20 May 2008 12:04:14 +0800
oi
i love u
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No man or woman is worth your tears.
The only one who is, will never make you cry.
If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart.
Hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Circles don't but ovals do.
Don't think Im not trying to shape things back.
posted at 2:18 AM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Yet your best friends still continued being close friends with this person and remained neutral, will it make you angry?
Someone once told me that not standing up for people in unbalanced situations and remaining neutral is already choosing to side with the oppressor.
I have to agree....
You don't have to hate that person for bullying ur friend...but remaining neutral and not defending your friend just shows how little you think of him/her.
Im just guarding my friends too jealously..
Learning to accept.
-the idiot. Im sorry.
posted at 3:25 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I was thinking uh...
and I thought I might start putting my blog on private too O.o
And then I might start going on about buying Meatball-on-stik,Sticking into/about ArseHOes, Mushroom-Farming[Shrooms burger + MushMOM & DAD], Pig slayerz[EMO-SPREE], And the Quackers[:)], and how can i ever miss: Our 4 Heavenly Queens. woo.
K im not gonna accept proposal to see it. Unless i missed you. And if u are nice then i might consider giving out a permit also = =.. lol.
Anyway[s], it all ties back to Might*.
Countdown days: 10.
posted at 4:48 AM
Friday, October 24, 2008
Meh, this song has been playing for more than an hour now. >Tagbox<
BAwwww!
I feel so bad today.
Ya so bad and apologetic :(
Anyway, Im having a really bad throat and i would probably lose it in a day or two.
So, want talk then call me till you hear the last of it :(
Im so sad T.T..
Though anyway i went to my couzie house and we've been gaming till 12. O.O
and guess wad, he made this :D
posted at 9:02 AM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Although the wounds appear to be healing...
Weary, but i pulled through the day. I tried so hard to be me again.. I tried but idk if i can do it again.
posted at 6:55 AM
Monday, October 20, 2008
Its late but it would be good if i were to salvage the happy moments i had today and jot it down whislt its fresh.
Ye i had a wonderful day out with my friends. (im not going in details) Though i dont know if im considered being close to them yet, for you know im not a good speaker and i take every inch catiously to avoid misunderstanding. But actually, in othr words im stupid >.>. I did enjoyed alot though and its the best one yet this year.
Meh but i had the shittiest experienced in the train. At last i knew wad is it like to brush with death so closely again.
I got trapped between the station door and train door. Fortunately there were ppl there who pry ed the door and got me out. Wanted to thank them badly but i was too shocked to do a thing..
Can't imagine wads next if the train starts moving.
Anyway, its going to turn out bloody and gore and I'm gonna be the next star for that while anyway.
Got home at like 7.40pm. Told my parents about the ordeal i have been through. Actually i was expecting them to hug me real tight and tell me wad its like to have me as their son and told me to be careful in future.
I guessed, naive and stupid on my part, they just shrugged and said OK.
I know I'm being dumb. But that was the least i would have wished for...
It just hurts but i feel the numbness coming.
Ye quite tbh, I never feared death that much before. But I guess that's it. :|
p.s. Trapped by the doors and now my arm hurts like anything. Need a long rest to recover i think.Managed to keep a strong front though. o.O..
posted at 9:07 AM
Monday, October 13, 2008
I would like to see things change for the better. So I thought it will be good if I do this.
Come clean. Be serious now. I know this is stupid but I really want to know:
Rate me as your friend.
Like at which level do you regard me as from 1-5.
You can reply at the chat log with your names pls. DW I wont be mad.
Just hoping that you guys can give me a direct and truthful answer thanks.
Anyway, Im sorry if I had made any bad choices and do things which I shouldnt have and that has offended anyone. Im trying to clear things up..confused..
And meanwhile, to know some of you has enriched the quality of my life and taught me some much about people that I am indebted to you eternally. Thank you for your time, your patience, your trust and most of all your friendship. I will cherish these memories to the end of my days.
posted at 2:29 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
I noticed that my posts are geting sorter by the day.
uh just wan to say that i dont really care anymore.
Exams are a big part of my life. I dread it like a plague and i couldnt wait for it to end.
Duh tho i got nth to say now cos im going thru so much everyday.
Head aching all over. And i doubt im going to survive till the end of next year.
Being serious now. I think im dying.
I dont why but i go breathless and i see black all over when i run.
I think i got lung disease. getting harder and strenous to catch very next breath.
Ciao ppl if i dont got a time to bade a farewell. But i will remember you guys tho. Been the best part of life. But i have been telling ppl to look on the brighter side of life. i guess its my turn to do so.
anyway, im trying to keep a smile going :]. trying..
posted at 8:31 AM
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Had some of the roughest day today. I thought chem would be a breeze but..
Anyway,i got really disappointed by some awful remarks and for once i felt lonelier than ever.
My parents were quarrelling again and i i figured that i wanted to leave home so badly but just as sadly, im not certain if theres anyone yet who i can turn to.
Though suicide has ever crossed my mind, i thought i am not ready to die just yet but im edging to my wit's end and idk wad i should do now...
Anyway, to keep this short. I have probably decide to close this blog or else ima just impose a ban on everyone except for some maybe. This blog is as good as dead anyway and everyone is just going crazy like me. Sometimes i wished the better times would be and zz...idk..
idk..
posted at 3:22 AM